December 20, 1968 … it was 55 years ago today when my Papa’s spirit was set free. I had just turned 4. And this year, 2023, is also the 10th anniversary of the passing of Ahnung, my soul dog whom I believe my Papa sent to me to help me in my healing. This year I also celebrated 35 years of being sober. 2023 has been a pivotal and significant year for me on so many levels.
In 2018 I reserved the AhnungWay.com website domain and wrote my first blog, The Ahnung Way … the Beginning. Apparently I needed five more years of growing and spreading roots beneath the soil and now I am ready to fully launch The Ahnung Way. I shared in that first post of a dream, a vision I had in early 2014 when the seed of The Ahnung Way was planted
“Last night, Ahnung (for the second time since her spirit crossed over on August 25, 2013) appeared in my dream and she showed me a new way, a new vision. I am not a visual artist, and I woke up with an image so vivid, so clear … a circle with people of all colors, races, ages .. of animals, of trees, of rocks .. and at the center was a fire and flame that reached up into the skies; and with us were stars, a squirrel, an eagle and a turtle. And I could hear drums. It was as if I could hear the heart of the earth beating. I could hear Ahnung’s heart. I could hear my heart, everyone’s heart. We were one heart .. and then I woke up”.
For days after that the vision was so clear and vivid and I was unable to erase the image from my mind and my heart. Over the following weeks, the words, “The Ahnung Way” kept appearing. Ahnung is asking me to walk a new path.
Something inside of me has kept me from venturing forward 100% with The Ahnung Way. I have wanted the stability of having a job, a steady income. About a month ago I made a decision to leave that stability and to jump not knowing where I would land and also knowing that I could not stay in an environment where I could not live, act and be in alignment with my values and the way I want to be in this world, and in with relationship with others. I now realized that by choosing to leave I have been walking the path Ahnung has been wanting me to walk .. a new path .. The Ahnung Way. Now it is time for me to fully take this out into the world.
In 2014 a graphic designer who had been following my story with Ahnung gifted me with the The Ahnung Way logo. I had shared with her the vision I had and how I couldn’t get the words ‘The Ahnung Way’ out. She sent me an email saying something kept her awake all night and she had been working on a design and she emailed me The Ahnung Way logo. I cried tears of joy upon receiving the email. After Ahnung crossed over into the spirit world it became clear to me she was still working her magic – just from another plane. I truly believe my Papa brought me Ahnung so that I could heal through the sexual abuse trauma and to take away the cancer cells in my body. I only had 4 years with my Papa and 5 with Ahnung and yet these two beings continue to be my North Star and impact and influence my life’s choices in more ways than I could have imagined. I know my work on earth isn’t done. I believe, without a doubt .. The Ahnung Way … is my final chapter.
I am excited to see where Papa and Ahnung guide me on this path, and incredibly grateful for all the amazing support I have received from friends to fully launch The Ahnung Way.
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